Day 3 :: Zone Zero :: site plan of the psyche

The last couple days we've been focusing on Permaculture Ethics. Another very pervasive idea in Permaulture is the idea of zones. The kitchen garden is zone 1 and the back 40 is zone 5. That's the basic idea. There has been, and still in, a lot of thinking about zones 1-5 and how to use each for maximum efficiency (aka laziness), but I am not here to talk about those (we do cover them in detail in the Lazy-Lady Living program). Instead I am going to talk about what has [...]

2019-01-10T07:14:06-07:00

Animus Mundi :: new moon invitation

Animus Mundi - the world soul is the concept where European philosophy echoes, meets and traces back to it's own, and all, indigenous roots. The concept goes back in the western tradition at least as far back as Plato. Carl Jung, whose work has been pretty much exiled from the intellectual institutions of our times, found it, dusted it off the forgotten term and revived it in his analytical psychology. For Jung, the world soul is the real spirit of the earth that has independent existence from human reality. It [...]

2018-03-23T13:16:52-07:00

Makings of a Manifesto :: 5 Books that still inspire me

I came to traditional foods and urban farming first through my slow-food Food Cart, Fold Crêperie way back in 2003-6. I was one of the first food-carts to use organic farm-based ingredients and Slow food principles in my cooking or to appear in a gourmet food magazine. When I was interviewed (without my knowing it of course) by Nancy Rommelmann of Bon Appetite magazine in 2005, I told her that what she saw wasn't actually a business, or even a restaurant, but a large scale sculptural piece, an art installation. It [...]

2019-01-10T07:18:28-07:00

The Moon was Full Last Night :: why I work with trauma

I have been thinking a lot about my calling in life, my work in the world and how it has evolved over my 44 years. I have been asking myself, Why do I work with trauma? Why have I spent so many hours and years wondering and working to understand what happens in trauma. The truth is I did it for myself. When I was 14 I sank into a deep depression. I stayed in bed for days. I had no idea why, I just felt horrible. It came back [...]

2018-03-22T15:50:34-07:00

Nervous Breakthroughs :: why you need more of them

Nervous Breakthrough: Derived from the oft referred to Nervous Breakdown, a Nervous Breakthrough occurs when, instead of viewing the symptoms of the aforementioned as pathological, one views them as important signs of imminent breakthrough. I once had a roommate who had spent about ten years practicing Zazen (a form of Buddhist meditation) who described the day she completed a koan after many years of meditation. She reported that she lost her physical ability to do some of the most simple everyday things, like tie her shoes, and walk down the [...]

2018-03-22T20:37:17-07:00

Grief Gates :: how allowing your grief can get you through

There is a Palace that opens only to tears - The Zohar I want to get really honest about grief, about what I call The Weeping. I have been in the closet about it for many years, only ever being half honest about how important the release of grief is. I was reminded once and for all last weekend at Sobonfu Some’s Grief Ritual. It was clean. It was raw. It was real. It was all out miraculous for one who has harbored snippets of release behind closed doors. This [...]

2018-04-03T10:00:52-07:00

Letting Love Flow :: a magic spell for radical authenticity

Lately I have been thinking a lot about love, about how we are always calculating love's scoreboard. About how we know we shouldn't but we can't help it. It's natural for us to get tangled up in the do's and don't's, the right and wrong, the eternal calculation of everything. Agonizing over every detail, certain that if we get it wrong everything will be a mess… and if we get it right, the sun will come out and we will finally feel joyful, safe... and loved. First of all it [...]

2018-03-22T20:37:18-07:00

The Weeping :: the world’s most ancient healing art

May God break my heart so completely that the whole world falls in. ~Mother Theresa I have been talking about the weeping for many years. Mostly just with myself and the Angels. I sometimes describe it to people to explain why crying isn't such a bad thing, when it is done right. Why I cling to tears as holy water, as sacred balm, as my birthright. There is a certain kind of crying that is a surrender, a pouring out, and then, a clearing. It is the broken-open heart. Finding [...]

2018-04-03T10:15:42-07:00

Teach Your Daughters Wailing :: the power of mourning women

It is Winter. The waters are frozen. The trees are bare. The heart is still as the season of death descends and the sound of grief echoes in the quiet sleeping garden of the soul. Winter is characterized by water, the healing water of tears. We invite the ancestors in the Fall and in the Winter we allow our grief to swell and emerge. Not just any tears, but the sacred tears of measured grief offered to the ancestors once and for all. This is the essential lesson of the [...]

2018-03-22T20:37:19-07:00

Trust Love

I hear it all the time: Birth is Safe. Trust Birth. As a Birth Keeper, this slogan kept me from stepping out on my own. I thought I had to wait until I could guarantee safety in birth. As a mother, it stirred a sense of guilt. You see, when I went into labor something happened. It was unexpected and it was bigger than me. It was NOT safe. It came from outside, a flurry of energies in my sacred birth space. It came from within, something deep, something old [...]

2018-12-20T08:42:05-07:00